Fickle

"Characterised by erratic changeableness or instability, especially with regard to affections or attachments."

I also have a music blog, I write reviews and just put music that I love on there. I had a look at it today and I didn't want to listen to anything on it. Not because I had changed my mind about the music I supposedly love, I still think all of it is incredible, but rather I convince myself that there is something better to listen to, somewhere.

I'm fickle, in every aspect of my life and I think I always will be.

I met a guy recently and I thought I liked him. I really think I did but I convinced myself that there is someone better, somewhere.

That scares me. I'd rather be alone. I'd rather listen to nothing. All because I want better.

What if what you have IS better? The best? And you walk away or you don't listen because "there must be something better."

Aren't you scared of walking alone in silence?

I am.